SO
im up to 147.


im 5'7.5

i think i look amazing.


im filled out. imm happy with my appetite.im healthy and i am okay for the first time in years to say i love myself. and i have no issue beign naked around anyoen let alone myself. not that imma get naked or anything.

but.

and i go through these days where i feel " fat" "huge" "like a tub of fuckign lard" and i get so upset if soemthign doesnt fit right.

heres the deal.

i know i cant be a fucking 115 my whole life. and fuck sakes i looked sick.

i have told myself. just get over it. you are a beautiful woman not a fuckign sickly stick.

im gettign rid of all of my clothign that doesnt fit.
im starting new.

if i get bigger, buy bigger. i neeed to pull myself out of this fuckign sick web that sociecty has weved for me.
thank you glamoure, vogue,prada gucci ect.


im coming out.